KakaSaku Fanfic Chapter 5

Chapter 5. Secrets and Old Feelings

Kakashi stepped out of his bed. He couldn’t catch sleep. His room was dark and lonely. He walked toward the bathroom and washed his face with the cold water.
“I could better do something usefull” thought he and he grabbed his forehead protector and shoes and walked to his door. The streets of Konoha were lighted and everything was quite. He walked to a bar, the only place people were still awake, and ordered a drink. He was drinking some sake when someone smacked him on the shoulder. He looked behind him and saw a good friend of him.
“Kakashi, nothing for you to be here on this time of the day.”
“I couldn’t catch a sleep Anko. So that’s why I’m here now.”
Anko laughed for a second. “If you can’t catch sleep and you don’t sit here reading one of your dirty books you have a problem” and Anko sat next to Kakashi.
Kakashi sighed for a second, he knew Anko was so stubborn that she wouldn’t leave until she knew what was the problem. But he couldn’t tell her he had feelings for...for this special girl.
“Whatever you say or do I’m not able to tell you cause I don’t have any problems”
“Oh please Kakashi don’t let me laugh. I know you for a very long time now and I know when you are in deep shit” said Anko.
Kakashi took another sip of his sake and looked at the woman next to him. He could stand up and walk away but she would follow. He could try to knock her out but he was too nice for that. He could make her so drunk that she would forget about him.
Nah, he was to nice to do that too.
“There’s nothing wrong alright. I’m perfectly fine”
Anko hit him on his shoulder very hard again. The sake he was holding in his hand spilled over.

“Kakashi, you are going to tell me now or I’ll have to use my evil tricks to make you say it” and Anko licked over the glass, with whatever she was drinking, with the scary look only she could have.
Kakashi ordered another sake and Anko was staring at him. She knew he hated that.  
“What do you want?” said Kakashi annoyed
“Tell me your problem. I want to know, I want to know” answered Anko curious.

Kakashi sighed, he wouldn’t get rid of her. That women is like a bee to honey. Or like Tsunade to sake. Or Jiraiya to…oh who cares. He smiled of his own thoughts.
“Kakashi, you are going to tell me right? It’s better to tell me than to tell Gai or Genma when you’re freaking drunk”
“Why should I tell you?”
“Because I’m a woman”
Kakashi suppressed a laugh, it was true but it was still hard to think Anko was a women. She was a tomboy and she always would be. But maybe she had some good advice for him. He didn’t have to tell which girl it was about.
“See…” he started. Followed by twinkling eyes of Anko. Damn he would regret this later. But now he needed to tell it to somebody.
“I think I…maybe I could have closer feelings for somebody.”
“Oh…my…goodness. Hatake Kakashi. The Copy Cat Ninja. The man who swore off love has feelings for someone? Don’t make me laugh”
“I didn’t meant to make you laugh”
“Your serious about this!? You’re fucking serious about this! Oh goodness.”
“So…are you going to tell whole Konoha now?” asked Kakashi.
“No I’m not. That’s not how I am. You should’ve known that Kakashi. But more important…” and Anko got another twinkle in her eye. Kakashi knew which question would follow.
“Who is it!? She must be special to make you like her”
“Not going to tell you” said Kakashi with a serious face.
“Alright. I’ll leave it for now,” Anko smirked a bit. “Now…you want advice I guess?”
“Advice would be nice yes” Kakashi still didn’t look at Anko.

Anko stood there with her hand rubbing her chin. She actually looked like if she was thinking. Kakashi waited until she finally said something.
“Ask her out on a date. Duh,” laughed Anko.
“I can’t do that,” sighed Kakashi.
“You actually haven’t told me anything right?”
Kakashi nodded and Anko sighed.
“If you’re not going to do that I can’t help you.”
“Sake please!” and Kakashi took a sip of his just ordered drink, ignoring what Anko said.
Anko got annoyed. “Alright Kakashi, if you’re not going to tell me I can’t help you and then I’m just wasting my time here.”
“I can’t tell you because, because it’s complicated.”
“Well, I did figure that out myself. But why is it complicated?” asked Anko.
“Because, I can’t have her in my life. She’s pretty, lovely and caring. But she’s not for me. She’s not meant for me.”
“Does she have a boyfriend already?” asked Anko.
“No, she doesn’t have one. She’s waiting for a special person to return. She’s saving herself for him.”
Anko nodded like she understood everything “I see I see, so you don’t want to feel something for her because you can’t get her?”
Kakashi nodded, hardly noticeable. “Sake please!?”
“Quit the drinking. Kakashi, if you want her you have to try. And maybe she wants you too. There’s only one way to ask her. And I’ve seen the look in her eyes while she walked next to you. I’ve seen the look in her eyes during the funeral. Her tiger is awesomely cute by the way.”
“How do you know!” Kakashi was a bit shocked. He didn’t excepted that somebody would notice.
“Well…to tell you the truth. Her tiger comes to my house sometimes to chat and she told me that. Pearl was worried because Sakura wasn’t doing well so I watched her a little from the back. And I noticed that since she’s hanging out with you she looks happier. Pearl noticed too.”
“Wait a second. You are friends with her TIGER?” Kakashi didn’t want to laugh but Anko made it hard for him.
A dangerous twinkle in Anko’s eyes appeared again “Got any problems with that?”
“No no no definitely not. It’s cool. But I already made my decision.”
Anko nodded. “So what is it?”
“I’m going to let her pass.”
“You’re going to do what!” yelled Anko, a bit too hard. The people in the bar looked their way. Anko looked at him and they turned around again. Sometimes it was good to be a bit scary.

“Kakashi…I know I can’t say anything to get you off that idea. You’re way to stubborn for that. But maybe you’re making a big mistake now.”
Kakashi raised his shoulders for a second.
Anko walked away from him heading for the exit. She didn’t say anything.
When she wanted to walk out of the bar she began to scream.
“WEAKLING. YOU DAMNED WEAKLING!” and with that she was gone.
Kakashi poofed out the bar. He hated when people stared at him. He poofed right into his living room. He looked around in the dark room. It was silent and cold. He missed a presence. The white couch was empty. He remembered the last time Sakura sat on his couch. She wasn’t her often but when she was her it felt like she made his room living. He sighed. Taking distance was going to be a lot harder than he expected. His love for Sakura was always there. He just didn’t noticed it. It was a lot deeper than he thought it was. He remembered a sting of jealousy he had when she kissed Sasuke a year ago. His feelings for her were there all along. He didn’t noticed them. He was such a dumbass.

Sakura leant on the edge of her balcony. Slowly she remembered it again. She dreamed about him. In her dream she saw her with him. Their first kiss. And of course their second. She stood there and she watched. They didn’t noticed that she stood her. She watched herself kissing Sasuke and smile to him. She relived all their happy moments. And then the ground broke apart and she fell. Deeper and deeper. When she finally stopped falling she noticed she was on a hill in the dark night. She heard a voice coming from the stars. But she didn’t remembered what it said. The voice was dark and heavy.

“Believe me. Save me………”

Sakura woke up from her thoughts. The voice. The words. It was…she turned around and looked in dark and cold eyes. In front of her stood somebody she knew very well. She couldn’t believe her own eyes. In front of her stood the person she missed. The person who make her shed her tears. The person which she prayed for every night. She couldn’t believe it.
The full moon shined on them. The wind blew along them. Sakura brought her hand to his cheek. His skin was cold and pale.
She wasn’t able to speak. Her words didn’t came out of her mouth. Her hand shook a bit.
This was the last thing she expected…

She moved her lips a bit but she didn’t make sound. Her eyes had a small sparkle in them. Her lips spelled just one word. Just one name. Sasuke.
“It’s alright Sakura. I have to hurry I don’t have much time.”
Sakura awakened from her trance. He was serious. He wasn’t her to just have a nice talk. “Tell me..” whispered she.
“You have to save me, each night you receive messages from me in your dreams. Remember them.”
“That’s what Lee also told me to do.”
“It’s the only way I can communicate. They’re keeping my mind closed off.”
”Who? Tell me Sasuke!”
“I don’t know who…but I do know you can save me. Just you. Please do it.”
“Of course I will,” and tears appeared in Sakura’s eyes. He was here. He needed here. But it was all so confusing. She hated the dreams. But she could go hate this moment even more.
“Sakura..,” she looked in his eyes again. His dark eyes. In his hand was a small necklace with a shining S onto it.
“Wear this and it’ll protect you against me,” he took her hand and gave her the necklace. He came close to her cheek and gave her a soft kiss. Sakura was still astounded by all the happenings. She nodded and Sasuke jumped off the balcony.
“Sasuke! No! Don’t…go,” she jumped after him and ran until she came at the stone bench. She didn’t saw her friend anywhere. Her fingers played with the silver necklace and the wind played with her pink hair. She sat down on the bench and remembered the last time she sat her in the middle of the night. It was when Sasuke left. Suddenly she felt lonely and lost. She couldn’t speak about this with anyone, not with Ino, not with Naruto and especially not with Kakashi. But just this one time, she needed to speak about it. She could feel that deep in her heart she still had feelings for Sasuke. Could it be love? Or just friendship? She wondered.
She stood up, planning to head home. In her mind she kept repeating all that happened just a few minutes ago. From pure frustration she bit on her lip until she tasted blood. She was walking without any sense of direction, until she noticed she stood in the field with the blooming cherry tree’s. One of her most favourite places in Konoha when she was younger.
Her lips moved..
Hold me tight, if this is how it feels
I didn't want to know
What it was like to be in love with someone
I love you, my tears won't stop
And so I wish
That I had never met you
It was so long ago since she sang that song, she wrote it when Sasuke was gone and sang it very often. But the last 3 years she didn’t even remembered the song…And now she didn’t knew if she was singing it for Sasuke or for Kakashi.
She fell down on the ground. She was so tired. Her sight became more vague. She heard a voice calling her from far away, but she thought it was only in her head. Then she heard it again, a sweet voice. It wasn’t Sasuke. And it wasn’t Ino either. With a lot of effort she managed to get up. She didn’t noticed the tears that ran over her cheeks.

Kakashi looked at her. He could see her pink hair moved by the wind. When he felt lonely just a few minutes ago he wanted to take a walk, and now he was looking at the girl who was special to him. But he had swore he would keep his distance. He saw the tears running from her eyes and started running towards her. For a second he forgot about his promise with himself. He was only thinking about the tears that went down her cheeks, falling on the soft ground.
Sakura looked at the person running towards her. Her sight was blurry but she recognized a strong chakra level. Her head felt heavy and her hands began to shake. She moved her black boot one step forward but almost lost her balance. She blinked with her eyes a couple of times and recognized a silver haired man. She wanted to put another step forwards, but just when she moved her other feet she could only say one thing “K-Kakashi,” and she fainted. Kakashi could catch her just in time. She slept in his arms and with his hands he removed the tears from her face. He wondered about what happened and about what he should do. He couldn’t stay here with her. And he was sure that she would kill him if he brought her to the hospital. No, before he did that he had to make sure about what happened. It was nothing for Sakura to push herself so far that she fainted. Something must’ve happened, he was sure about it.
He lifted her up and carried her away from the fields. His house was on the other side of the town so Sakura’s apartment was closer. He felt in her pockets to see if there was a key but couldn’t find any. Of course she was smart enough to not put it in her pockets so she could lose it easily as a ninja. Meanwhile he was standing in front of her house. He was sure that nobody has seen them…right? With Sakura in his arms he tried to look for a key. Eventually he found one, right between her belt “I should remember that place,” said he to himself in the dark night. He carried her inside and placed her on her large bed. She looked so tired, but yet so sweet. He put the blanket over her and walked in to her living room. She probably would be fine after a good night rest and some sedatives against headache. But he still wondered what happened, he just couldn’t think of something that made her so broken. But thinking that she met the guy who was so special to her long time ago and faced the confrontation with her past wasn’t an option which came down his mind…

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“Sakura,…Sakura answer me!”
Sakura slowly opened her eyes, finding herself in a wood close by a river. The river was calm and looked refreshing. The sun was burning and their weren’t any breezes. She felt a person standing behind her, but for some reason she didn’t want to turn around. Her hand went to her heart and she felt a necklace around her neck. A large, silver S.
“Sakura, you know you have to go and find me! You know you will do it. Hurry up, please. I need you!”
These words made her heart skip a beat. She knew it all along, but didn’t want to look Sasuke in the eyes again. Not willing to cause more confusion for her. She realized it was all a dream. And she had to wake up.
“This is a dream Sakura! Wake up from it now, this isn’t real! You have to wake up!”

With a shock she woke up, breathing heavily from waking up. When she looked around there weren’t any trees and the river was also gone. But she still felt a presence of somebody close by. She prayed that it wasn’t Sasuke, she couldn’t handle that. It had to be all a dream. She hasn’t seen Sasuke and he didn’t kiss her again. That just couldn’t be. Her hand went to her neck, and when she felt something she knew it wasn’t a dream. Doubt came to her, she didn’t know what to do anymore. She couldn’t just go out looking for Sasuke, not on her own. Outside her window the sun slowly came up and the birds woke up. Sakura took a deep breath. She had to do something, she just had to came up with a plan and everything would be fine.

“Oh good, you’re awake,” she heard in the door opening. She turned around her head and saw Kakashi standing there. Questions went through her head, how did he came her and how did she actually came here? Did he knew anything? Did he saw Sasuke too?
Kakashi walked towards her and placed his hand on her forehead.
“Hm, you don’t have any fever. Maybe you were just exhausted,” he spoke.
Sakura looked at him and realized he only knew that she fainted and he brought her home. His onyx eye was staring at her which made her feel a bit uncomfortable. It was like it wanted an explanation which she couldn’t give. No this was something she had to figure out by herself. And she didn’t wanted to lie to anybody and especially not to Kakashi but she had no choice. She had to find Sasuke alone.

PREVIEW OF CHAPTER 6!!!!!!!!!

“You have to go on the mission Sakura!” said Tsunade.
“But, it’s an ANBU mission and I’m not an ANBU.”
“Yes I know that, but you’re the only one capable of doing this undercover mission. I’m sorry Sakura, it’s dangerous and I don’t want you to go but you are the only person who can do this. Or else Konoha would be in great danger.”
Sakura sighed, she knew she had to do this but it wasn’t something she wanted. Not while she was planning a Rescue-Sasuke mission. This mission was hard and there was a change that she wouldn’t survive it. But she also knew that she had to go. Because of her one special power, she had to go.
”Sakura, go make preparations. Make sure nobody can recognize you. I’ll come up with a plan. I’m sorry Sakura, I also don’t want you to go,” said Tsunade with a soft voice.
“It’s okay Tsunade-sama, I’ll do it. And I’ll come back alive,” and with a small smile Sakura left the Hokages building.